I'm Afraid

I'm afraid

My heart beats sorrowfully with unrequited love.
My palms clammy as I reach for my vulnerable bosom

My legs give away; I fall into the abyss of fearful love
Fearful in its uncertainty

I love you Damn it, why won’t you answer me,
A cold shudder awakens me I am in a trance I am dreaming
Do you love me though?

I am still afraid

I said love me damnit

Do you love me though?

A cold hard hand squeezes my heart my head pounds,

Somebody just hit me I am about to explode,
A cold shudder awakens me I am in a trance I am dreaming,

Do you love me though? Rivulets of blood flow down my bosom,
my heart bleeds I wait for the awakening shudder,
Am in a trance am I dreaming.

A cold silence envelopes me I am dead I can’t feel nothing I am numb,
 the deep well of nothingness envelopes me,

The last moments of the Titanic with the violin playing,
I wait for the shudder to awaken me,
the taste blood in my mouth, You,
I scream in my head somebody help!! did you just bash my teeth in,

I walk towards a light I am at rest I feel no pain, a warm embrace i am in God’s arms.
The promise of no more pain,

Baby, baby a voice beckons threatens my newfound heaven
my silver light and the warmth of God’s embrace.

Baby I didn’t mean to. Can you hear me?

I hate you, I hate you, didn’t mean to what?

The shudder comes again I am not in a trance, you have done it,
My doe eyes stab you with the intensity of the hate I feel for you, hate or love, I am lost

Is that you squashing my broken heart under your feet, did you say baby?
My face feels warm, my head is bleeding, oh lord he hit me.

You you you,

I know he did not, Lucifer is standing in front of me is that you do you love me though?

I said love me danmit.

Baby I did not mean to hurt you say, I hate you I hate you,

What did you mean to do?
A cold shudder awakens me I am in a trance I am dreaming.
I walk away my heart under your big clumsy feet,
I hate you.
Baby I didn’t mean to you say, I am obvilious to your whining voice,
I hate you,

My head held high, I walk never looking back. Lucifer behind me,
Only Love can heal me,
Once again
Leaving my heart under your big, clumsy feet.
Big clumsy feet,
Only love will heal me